We hope you didn’t forget the first part of our touching story Hope kept me alive. So let’s know what happened with these girls a bit later.
The night passed and I woke up confused and ashamed with what I did. What happened? I have just made love with a girl. I felt like I was drunk, like everything was just a distant dream. But I knew it was real, because there was Anastasia, sleeping next to me. It was one of those moments in life when you find out about yourself things that you never thought possible and I was experiencing such a moment. I left, without letting anyone know and I went to see my mom at the hospital. Before they let her go, we talked about what to do next and how should we handle the situation. We both decided that living the same life was no longer an option and that Dmitri had to go. So we made preparations to move, without him knowing about it.
During this time I couldn’t take my mind off that night with Anastasia and I noticed that, as time passed, I felt more excited about the thought that I may be seeing her again soon. I was never involved in any romantic relation with a girl and this was something completely knew that I was finding about me. At the same time, I knew that no one must find out about what happened. People in Russia have a long way to go in accepting the differences between human beings. I was excited, but I was also afraid with what could happen if such a story would become public. It was not long ago when 2 students from a different University in Moscow were severely beaten and hospitalized for being gay.
My mind was boiling with thoughts and I didn’t know what to do, especially since my mom and I didn’t know where to go. Then I got that call that changed my life. It was Anastasia and I immediately realized that it had been 3 days since I left her house and we haven’t spoken since. But she didn’t seem upset. Her voice was calm and comforting. She told me she understood why I ran and that she would like if we were to meet to talk about my situation. Long story short, what happened next was probably the best thing in my entire life. Her family had an apartment in downtown Moscow and they just hand it to us for an unlimited period of time. It was the most beautiful gesture anyone has ever done for us and I couldn’t be more grateful.
Few days after we move, Anastasia came to our place and she stayed overnight. We talked and she told me she was a lesbian since she was just a little girl and that she always had a crush on me. I believe I blushed several times, because she kept laughing when I was ashamed with what I heard. Whenever my head went down, she kept lifting my chin with her hand and looked me in the eyes. She told me that she loves me then she kissed me again. She had a soft skin and her lips were sweet and warm. I surrendered myself to her and that one night showed me who I really am. I know now that I am a lesbian and I am proud to say so.
The next day I found out that her parents knew about her sexuality and that they were totally fine with it. They also knew about her passion for me and they were also cool about it.
Now, 3 months later, I can truly say that love changed my life. Anastasia and I intend to marry, but we will need to leave Russia for this to happen. I will never lose hope that someday I can get to live the life I want and neither should you. Your true love may come from anywhere. You just need to look for it and don’t lose hope.