For anyone who would read this, it is the first time that I am experiencing such a thing. I am David and I am 19 years old and this is my first relationship ever. I am still confused about the whole situation, because I found out that I like both guys and girls, which I think makes be bisexual, but I have never had the chance of experiencing a relationship until one month ago. I knew Josh, my actual boyfriend from a while ago, since we both go to the same high school and I think we have always flirted with each other. Or at least that is how it appeared to me.
Josh and I get along quite well and he is a very loving guy. I am not really sure if we love each other, but we definitely grow fond of one another. We always spend quality time together and he is funny and caring.
Not everybody knows about our relationship because we prefer not to involve any other third party in our world. Teenagers of my age can be a bit uncomfortable and I guess we are better of separated from the public view. But we use to meet in our spare time and share some pleasant activities such as video games and generally having fun.
Two weeks ago I went to his house for the first time and I met Josh’s parents. They are those kinds of parents that would make you jealous on his life. Probably the most decent and cool parents I ever saw and I have to stop now and talk about his father. His looks struck me as soon as I saw him and I must have remained bedazzled. He was a gorgeous man, tall and well built, elegant with large blue eyes. I knew right there and then that I was in love but I did my best to contain myself and keep my feelings on a leash. You may think it was just a teenager’s caprice and so I thought for couple of days. But then I realized I couldn’t remove Josh’s dad from my head. It was something that kept sending chills down my spine every time his image popped in my head and he is all I could think about.
As you can imagine, Josh still doesn’t know anything and no one else for that matter and I would like to keep it that way. But I still don’t know what I should do because I never expected this to be happening and it is something completely new for me.
I would appreciate any advice that would help me make things clearer.