I never thought I will ever end up doing what I did, but then again I guess love is a hell of a complicated thing. I am Rolly, 21 years of age, and I fell in love with an Iranian guy. He came visiting the states about 2 years ago and I knew him through a friend of mine. One thing led to another and he began growing fund of each other. From that it was just a small step to a beautiful relationship, but I don’t think any of us had an idea how much we will get involved. Soon I knew I was in love with him and I also knew that this was going to be a difficult situation, because he was only there for a short time. He was seeing a relative of his and after 5 months he told me that he had to go back home. This thought made me cringe. I knew the situation in Iran was pretty disastrous and I have had a lot of conversations with him on the subject. He told me that he had personally lost a close friend due to the death penalty for being gay. He said that the local media presented him as guilty of child abusing, just to get everyone’s sympathy and support for his execution. This is how the situation was later presented across the borders and it was something that had affected him greatly.
I didn’t want him to go back there and I begged him to stay. He told me that his family needs him and I could not argue too much with that. I had to let him go, even though my heart was leaving with him.
For a while we have communicated through Skype, but he told me that that was a risky business, because his family was unaware of the fact that he was gay and he was doing his best to keep it that way. The whole situation was affecting me, but I at least found comfort in knowing that I can talk to him from once in a while. You would think that a distant relationship would soon wear off and I really thought that too for a while. But it seemed like we were more in love with one another than ever before. The distance between us all it did was bringing us closer.
Then something happened that installed fear in my heart. One day he told me that he was having some problems and that he will not be able to talk for a while. Then he closed the session before I even got to say anything. I tried contacting him for over the course of several days but with no success. Two painful weeks passed and I thought I was going to lose my minds. There was really nothing I could do. All I could possibly do was to wait for him to contact me and this is something that can drive you crazy.
After one month he finally came back online and I jumped at the laptop hoping that everything was OK. But it was not. He told me that he got arrested for couple of weeks under the suspicion that he was homosexual and that they were still crowding the evidence to get a conviction. He told me that he is expecting the worse. I could not talk anymore. I felt like everything that was beautiful in the world was about to be destroyed. It didn’t take long for me to reach to a conclusion. I knew I had to go there and save him or I should die trying. He was the only reason I even existed, my friend, my lover, my life.
About two weeks later I was there and I never stopped talking to him while on the road. I told him about my plan and while he said that it was too dangerous and that I had to let it go, I think he knew inside him that I cannot do that.
I had a few trustworthy contacts in the area and I arranged a quick extraction during one night. But his family found out and his father came and threatened me that he will expose me if I don’t go away. That is when I realized that not even his family would help him and that I was his only real support that he had. We ran that night and he were lucky enough to escape without any real problems.
We have been living safe in the States for almost a year now and we are getting ready to set up a wedding. He is the only one I will ever love and I don’t know what I would have done without him.
I would like to raise awareness against the savagery of some countries where people are being treated like animals and are being killed on a regular basis for merely living as who they are. This is no world where love could ever flourish. All it matters now is that I have saved my lover and we can start building our lives just the way we want them to be.