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This is the story of my first time and, as many first times on anything, it didn’t´t go well because of my inexperience. Many say they knew they were gay their whole lives, not my case. I had no idea. If somebody would tell me I was gay before that day, I would have given them a middle finger. But I was wrong and now I am glad to discover how wrong I was.

It all started one day when I was hunting for women online, one of my favorite pastimes back then and I tried to hit on what I thought it was a girl.

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Her nickname was “nena27cd”, I will remember that nickname till I die. I just spoke a little bit with her and then I asked about the meaning of the “cd” on her nickname and then she told me – crossdresser.

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I was a bit shocked at first because even though I have never been homophobic. It quite surprised me to know she was not a girl but since I was enjoying the chat with her, I didn’t´t mind and kept chatting with him. After a while he asked me to meet him in person, since we were in the same city. I politely rejected but added him on my Skype.

The thing was that since that day I could not think about something else. Meeting a guy? No way. No way? Why not? And after a few days I decided to talk to him again and agree to meet him in her place.

We didn’t´t have much time to stay together because he had to go to work and I got lost in the way so I arrived really late. I must confess I was nervous like hell at the time but he really made his best to make me feel comfortable and I really felt good. I felt so good that I wanted to meet him again another day with more time, and so we did.

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The second time we were together he was really sweet and caring and treated me as no girl ever did in my life. I felt comfortable, loved and cared about. And what did I do in return? Not contacting with him in a week. I was a jerk, the jerk I always was. Of course, and with all due reason he sent me to hell and didn’t return my messages anymore.

Since that day my life completely changed. I have met more guys since then but I will always remember him because he was the first one and also the one who changed me because now I am not a completely straight man anymore, and hopefully not a jerk either.

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