But I recognized a few ways—how he carried himself and his looks—and I thought, ‘Is he or isn’t he?’ And then a scandal sheet [Confidental] exposed him, and he faded right after that.That was an abject lesson for me: You cannot be gay and hope to have an active career.
And so up went my closet door—well, doors don’t go up! It closed.I went in the closet because I wanted an acting career. So, he was my first heartthrob, but he also sent me a message: You cannot aspire to be an actor if you’re gay.