The follow-up to his global smasher MONTERO (Call Me By Your Name), the track shows a softer side to the rapper; detailing his past thoughts of depression and suicide as he comes to terms with his sexuality and identity.
He sings in the first verse: “Since ten, I’ve been feelin’ lonely / Had friends but they was pickin’ on me / Always thinkin’, ‘Why my lips so big?’ Was I too dark?
Can they sense my fears? These gay thoughts would always haunt me / I prayed God would take it from me.” Contrasting with the fiery visuals for MONTERO, Lil Nas X can be seen in an all-white ensemble in the video as he travels back to the past to advise a bleach-blond version of himself, who works at Taco Bell and prepares for his high school prom.