2020 interview with the Guardian, Lil Nas X revealed, "The honest truth is, I planned to die with the secret. ... It was just me acting really hard, which I did a lot of in the beginning.
Because it felt like that’s what I had to do.”He also discussed his concern for the safety of fans who struggle with the decision to come out. "I don’t want to encourage them to do something they don’t 100% want to do.
Especially in, like, middle school or high school. Because it’s just super hard."Referencing himself, he explained, "It’s easier for me.
I’m not depending on anybody. There’s no one who’s going to kick me out of the house — nobody to start treating me shitty." While his parents know about his sexuality, he clarified, "It’s not something.