Growing up, I didn’t have any gay icons to look to because I didn’t come out until I was in my early 30s. I’d been part of an evangelical church since I was 17, so being gay was not an acceptable thing.
I battled inwardly with it until I finally got out of the church and woke up to myself. If I wasn’t allowed to be gay whilst I was part of that wondrous institution, then anything associated with gayness was packed full of guilt and feelings that I’d let God and the world down.