Channel 4 Mind Control star has now explained how the moment changed him and how he "deflected" beforehand.The 49-year-old has spoken candidly about his sexuality in a new interview, as well as his identity crisis.He said that after he came out, he lost a lot of his "self-consciousness".The television star was picked on at his private school in Croydon, where his father taught swimming, before going on to study German at Bristol University.It was there that Darren became an exhibitionist conjurer to hide his shyness.He tried to train himself out of his homosexuality before speaking out 13 years ago.The illusionist reflected that without this he may not have gone on to be a performer.Derren commented: "If you’re uncomfortable with what comes.