Hi Jake,I grew up in a very religious household, and even though I’ve distanced from all that now, I think I have a thing for religious iconography. I love shirtless guys wearing a cross necklace, guys with angel wings tattooed on their backs, and even get turned on by images of a half-naked Jesus being carried on a cross. Subscribe to our newsletter for a refreshing cocktail (or mocktail) of LGBTQ+ entertainment and pop culture, served up with a side of eye-candy.But my biggest turn-on is a sexy “man of the cloth.” As a teenager, I spent a lot of time with young, handsome priests in my religious training after school, and often secretly lusted over them. I remember finding it weirdly erotic at mass when the priest would provide the holy Eucharist by placing “the body of Christ” on my tongue.Eventually, I stopped going to church completely after realizing my sexuality was considered a sin, but that didn’t shake my obsession.
My new thing is searching for “priest porn” online. There’s tons of it!Often times, I feel like there’s something really wrong with me for being into all this.
I even tried to forbid myself the fantasy for a while, but keep coming back to it. Is this something I need to be concerned about and eventually rid myself of? Father, I Have SinnedDear Father, I Have Sinned,You wouldn’t be the first to sexualize a priest, or there wouldn’t be an entire adult film category devoted to it (not to mention the world’s obsession with the “hot priest” from Fleabag).
For some, especially queer people who may have experienced sexual repression ourselves earlier in life, what’s unrequited or verboten can be what is desired the most.