I tried hooking up with a guy to see if I’m gay, but now I regret it. Is it too late for me to be straight?
Dear Jake,I’m an 18-year old freshman in college, and I’m feeling so confused about my identity. I’ve always been really close with the guys in my life (even more so than any girls I’ve dated), and I’ve often wondered if maybe I’m more emotionally attracted to men than to women, and if that means I’m gay (although it’s not so much a physical thing for me). Subscribe to our newsletter for a refreshing cocktail (or mocktail) of LGBTQ+ entertainment and pop culture, served up with a side of eye-candy.I recently decided to act on my curiosity to see how it felt.
I downloaded an app, chatted with a guy in my town who seemed attractive enough, and met up with him. But, as soon as the encounter started, I wanted out. First off, the guy ended up being someone I knew from high school, and I didn’t realize that until I had gotten into his car.
My social anxiety stopped me from leaving, and I couldn’t seem to find the courage to reject him. On top of that, I wasn’t even feeling physically attracted to him.
I don’t know what’s wrong with me, but I ended up going through with the hook-up anyway. I was regretting it the whole time. Now, I feel like he’s going to tell everyone we know that I’m gay, which i don’t even think I am.
