I make sure I’m “ready” any time a maintenance guy or delivery man comes over. Am I insane?
Hi Jake,I’m embarrassed writing this letter, but since it’s anonymous, here goes…I’m an older gay man, and being in your late 60s in “the gay world” is basically being invisible, especially when you’re attracted to young, hot “masc” types in their 30s and 40s.
What ends up happening is that I spend a lot of my time in fantasy. Sometimes, it’s the only thing that keeps me going. But lately I’ve been wondering if I’m taking it too far. When I am told that a repairman, plumber, or even delivery person is going to be showing up to my apartment at a certain time, I immediately go into a daydream that maybe this hot, young strapping lad is going to want to have his way with me.
I’ve heard of crazier things, and it certainly happens in the adult movies I watch. So I’ve taken it so far as to actually… prepare, if you know what I mean.
Just in case. If my fantasy were to come true, I need to be ready, right? Needless to say, my ideal scenario has never even come close to happening in real life.
